PAIN

PAIN is inevitable, suffering is optional.

I know this axiom, and I still I fail to implement it. I did read it somewhere that you cant laugh at the same joke again and again, then, why do cry for the same thing that hurt you. We hold on to pain more than we hold on to happiness. And this could explain why people have long resentments , grudges, and they have a burning desire to take revenge even if it has been years.

I, too, have a resentment against someone, and I really want to het him punished for his sins. Am I selfish here for wanting this? Isn’t this the rule of karma that you shall reap what you have sown. Still, the feeling to see him punished infront of my eyes keeps burning in me(or is burning me?)

Anger is like a burning coal — it harms the one is holding it. Yes, I have been angry that I could not stand for myself. That I could not speak for myself. I felt lost at that point of time and wanted to keep something that was mine(or, I thought so). One thing was not volatile to me.

Did I deserve this pain? What did I do to deserve this pain — by being selfless and considerate. Why are we taught in school to be helpful when this world does not care about it. This world with tear you into pieces and when you ask why — it will glare at you : why did not you speak before?

Though I am bitterly hurt, and at pain, and I wish I could let go off this lump in my throat in someway, I would be happy.

Anyone, please let me know how you cope up with this pain and resentment.